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...i would go back to my ...i think 11th grade health class.....MHS, i had Mr. Kaczmarek.... and we had to present to the class:

1-a demonstration of a hobbie (such as making bracelets, making cookies...)

2-bring in one visual aid of the hobbie of choice....

So, i chose art/drawing/sketching as my hobbie that "improves my health" really does but.....

I totally fucked up my presentation.... at that tyme in my life, i SUCKED ASS AT GIVING SPEACHES....
i got really nervouse...i often choked on my words in front of forien people....

And, the reason why i am writing this blog is because i just want to Write out what i REALLY REALLY

Because its really setting heavy on me...i really really regreat cracking under preasure about something that is/was so important and meaningful to me....

So this is what I really would rathe tell the public....


"some people write. some peole sing. some people teach.... well there is not really much i am good at....
but something that i do that reall means more than words could ever explain is sketching.
As you all should have noticed by now, i am more of a quite person. Well the pictures i try to sketch out
can say more words than i ever could in one average day of skool...i don't really look at this as a
"tallent" but rather an outlet to release the thoughts in my head.

Ever since i was little, i have been using different mediums of self expression.
My mother would buy me markers, Rose-Art or Crayola crayons, chalk, watercolor paints,
and plenty of paper in white and rainbow colors... if i could guess an age...i would say before...5?
For example, i was rumageing through one of my mom's file cabbinets and found a colored doodle of
Simba and Nala from The Lion King... it was the two of them running at a distance... they were sort of
far away, and they were running towards the right of the white paper. there was some detail put into this:
a yellow-setting sun watched the 2 cubs in the background. To show it was the jungle, there was some "Jungle Green" shrubery and grass as the ground. Reflecting back on this sad attempt to recreate a sceen from "The Lion King" made me laugh. But at the same tyme, it was very enjoyable to see what i drew back-in-the-day. I realize i should be more greatful to my mom for even opening art up to me.Who knows, i may never had drew anything if not for her.....

Now, when i look at the cover of one, of my various, sketch books, i see that the "Mead" brand , "Academie" book printed "Sketch Diary". At first, i thought it was a dumb thing to lable this. But Now, it realize that it realy is a "Diary" for me.

I never really kept a diary... so, i did write some thoughts here and there in my sketch book.
But thats not really why it is a "sketch diary"
.... the pictures say more than the words i write...
As they say "a picture says a 1000 words." I guess that statment would be kinda true for me.

"My Flaws are Open Season". Song "bother" by Corey Taylor.

I really really like this song, and this particular statment. I feel i can relate to it.... i don't ever really stick up for myself.... most of the tyme i never really say what i really want to say....because i am always afraid...afraid to offend anyone...afraid that no one will listen....afraid of rejection........................... in stead of speaking... i just keep to my self.... but what is not spoken virbally,
i try to express it through my art.... weather its something i have always wanted to express, or and idea that came to me, a dream or envision i want to plan out through paper and pencil, or feelings from my heart and soul: these are all factors that are the essence of my sketches/drawings/paintings/doodles/colorings.....

Every single peice of art i make, i put a peice of me into.... weather its just a doodle during Tech Math,
or an acrylic painting in the art room, a part of my soul goes into it. So if this peice of work were destroyed,
part of me will get destroyed as well.... this is just how much my art means to me. I really don't know what
i would do if i could not use a pencil or pen or paper to express my self. Its the greatest invention ever invented, in my opinion....

so...i guess, this is just a bit of how art is apart of my heart, my soul, my life....
My art is my poetry, my sketches are my songs, my doodles are the way i teach the world what goes on inside my head, my heart, my soul..... And i just really really wanted to tell the world this....

So, if i could go back in tyme, i would go to the day i was to present my "health-improving hobbie" and tell the
class what Sketching Really means to me......this is one of MANY , MANY regreats of my past that i wish so badly
i could go back in tyme to change.....

As i wrote this, i was attempting to replicate the cover of "The Devil Wears Prada" cd cover: "Dear Love: A
Beautiful Discord. I just got it today...11/16...and that is what i am currently listening to. i heard of this
band through the Silverstien/Aiden/It Dies Today concert. It Dies Today were stuck in Boston so The Devil Wears Prada filled in for them. IT WAS AMAZING! I AM SO GLAD AND FEEL SO LUCKY I WAS ABLE TO MAKE IT TO THIS CONCERT!
  • Listening to: The Devil Wears Prada
  • Reading: ...
  • Watching: ..


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Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Current Residence: WI
Favourite genre of music: Metal, Alternative-Emo, Classical and Anime, JRock, JPop, Video Game
Favourite photographer: Syaoran Strife aka Kyle
Favourite style of art: pencil and sketch book or pen
Operating System: i'm a PC
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Shell of choice: ..."inside my shell i wait and bleed"...?
Favourite cartoon character: Link, Oerba Dai Vanille, Oerba Yun Fang, Clair Farron, Kikyo,DuoMaxwell,HeeroYuy,Aerith,HatoriSohma,NightTenjo,KyoSohma,Kamina
Personal Quote: all things in life happen for a reason, understanding that reason is the hard part...
"I may forgive, but I will Never forget..."

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Link-Twilight-Hero Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2011
Milady, please come back to me.
princesspeach00 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2012
I doubt she is listening. I don't have emotions anymore. I was wiped of them. I still feel saddness, and hate. otherwise I feel nothing. If she returns, go to her. I no longer have the emotions to do anything about it.
Link-Twilight-Hero Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2012
You replied to an old message. She has given me closure. Enough to move on. Do not send yourself into torment on my behalf. I hearby release you. I only ment to form you into a proper Princess. Go now. I will find the spells necessary to return what you have lost in time.
princesspeach00 Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2012
Master, not a proper princess, I never have, but I am the best ruler the Mushroom Kingdom has ever had. And....they love me for it. The Goddesses wiped me of my feelings for more than one reason. It was nessasary.....I don't even know why. Why must they controll me in such ways? If you can......I will accept your offer of release, but it makes no difference if the goddesses disagree. I must obey you, and them. no matter what, if you too were to get in an aruement, I would be confused. but I obey mostly you, you are more........'fair' I guess is the word.
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Link-Twilight-Hero Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2011
My lady are you present?
disdahobo Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2008
i gots a facebook, but i think it would be totally beneficial if we all met somewears, by the by my grammar and spelling sucks all i gots to say is thank god for spell check now being put directly in firefox ^.^ I am not sure exactly all the details and me and my friends are quite good at staying out of pictures so we dont have that many pics of us up there... i think only 3... yeah... where you live around so's we can maybe find a place in the middle and all meet up and we can share our ideas and what not >.> or we could just pose for ya -.o(/wink)
disdahobo Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2008
so yeah... if you go to my youtub page me and my friends are looking for a pic of my background only instead of the alien face we want it to be a face of us 3 only as if we were in an anime >.> that's the dream... i would bug you into making it now but i figure i should let you get done with your homework >.>
forsakenkikyo Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2008  Hobbyist General Artist
aww hehe~ sorry i didn't read this sooner... -*-. Yeah, i should try to draw you and your friends~ that would be neat to pull it off~ all i need is s0me pics of you 3~ oh and if you wanna tell me what each of you would like done. like what clothes, what anime style eyes... like , if you wanted to be set in a naruto theme sketch, i can try that~ hmm, are you a myspace person or facebook person~ maybe that would be a good way to see pics of you all?
forsakenkikyo Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2008  Hobbyist General Artist
btw, i Suck at typing and spelling and all that grammar junk~ So i'm very sorry if i don't make sense
disdahobo Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2008
doodles are a glimpse into the soul
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